Today, I went to a funeral.... for a 19 year old boy who I went to home school coop with... he OD'ed on drugs last week. He went to bed and when his mom went in to wake him up the next morning he was gone=(
Honestly so many things are running through my head, I knew this boy... not well but still, I knew him, he was my age...
One thing that stuck out to me is how he was found, because I know in my heart that this is a risk for me as well (not ODing) but simply 'not waking up'. it made me think of just one more way my life (and anyone with type one) is so different from other peoples. I'm not trying to be morbid, but in all honesty, I know its a possibility, none of us are promised tomorrow, and peeps with t1d have one more reason to keep short accounts.
I can't ignore my mom, when she calls me in the morning...
Because when she says 'are you getting up?'
she's really saying, 'are you alive?'
I can hear it in her voice...
I can't just pretend,
that I didn't hear her,
because it breaks my heart
everytime
she thinks, for that
split second,
that I'll never wake up
again.
Saturday, October 20, 2012
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
Diabetic funnies
I participate actively on the CWD forums, and someone started a post of funny stories about diabetes, which made me realize how many stories I have. So here are the ones I thought of, comment and share your own!
First time my mom went away after dx (for 2 weeks=O) we were at church and my dad asked (from across the hallway) Jess were you high again this morning? I nearly died when the assistant pastor turned around and was like "What?"
My younger sister saw me reading the T-slim brochure and told me I was cheating on my pump;-) she was like 'what is his name?' 'steve' 'you're cheating on melmin!' 'Kate, melmin will always be in my heart...' 'yeah but steve will be in your pocket!'
first time I went low (at 3am) my dad was still half asleep and started to leave my room to get me juice, but he didn't see the cork board I had across the doorway to keep the dog out and ran right into it.... then chucked it across the hall and broke it in half=O you might say he had been a bit stress (it was two days after we got home)
Once my dad came and checked me at 2am and he thought I was awake but I was just sleep testing... when he left the room he said he'f be back in a few hours and I yelled "I'm locking my door!" luckily my door doesn't have a lock.... I still don't remember it!
My mom asks me every night "So whats your plan?" one time I told her that I planned to finish high school and go to college for nursing... then find prince charming and settle down;-)
one of the few times lows have messed with my brain (and I lost time) I stole my younger sisters cell phone and told a boy who was dating our friend that I was going to find him and string him up by his toes...
when I was in the hospital for dx a nurse came in all cheery and said "You can do anything even with diabetes... except fly a commercial plane and serve in the army." I looked at her deadpan and said "You just crushed my dreams." (she didn't) I think she almost cried!
When they were teaching my parents how to use the glucagon (As I just watched sort of creeped out) my dad was playing with the one they had shown them (it didn't have a needle) and he pretended to stab my mom in the leg. He scared her so bad she was across the room in like a second and wouldn't come back for a minute!
My friends find test strips (used) at their house and save them for weeks so they can give them back when I come over again.
A little boy I babysat saw my pump and asked what it was... I told him it was a battery pack and that I was really a robot... he believed me!
I finally got sick of people asking me if I could eat stuff and just said "nope" and kept on eating, the poor girl thought I was going to die! (but hey, she also thought that diabetes was a problem with your heart....)
ANd the best one ever....
I was at church, and a big joke with my friends is that people ask if I can eat things 'in my condition' like I'm pregnant or something... so one time a man I barley know came into the church kitchen and was like ' young lady I don't think that's on your diet!' and my friend stood up and yelled 'THE BABY IS FINE OKAY?' we nearly died and he hasn't spoken to me since!
My younger sister saw me reading the T-slim brochure and told me I was cheating on my pump;-) she was like 'what is his name?' 'steve' 'you're cheating on melmin!' 'Kate, melmin will always be in my heart...' 'yeah but steve will be in your pocket!'
first time I went low (at 3am) my dad was still half asleep and started to leave my room to get me juice, but he didn't see the cork board I had across the doorway to keep the dog out and ran right into it.... then chucked it across the hall and broke it in half=O you might say he had been a bit stress (it was two days after we got home)
Once my dad came and checked me at 2am and he thought I was awake but I was just sleep testing... when he left the room he said he'f be back in a few hours and I yelled "I'm locking my door!" luckily my door doesn't have a lock.... I still don't remember it!
My mom asks me every night "So whats your plan?" one time I told her that I planned to finish high school and go to college for nursing... then find prince charming and settle down;-)
one of the few times lows have messed with my brain (and I lost time) I stole my younger sisters cell phone and told a boy who was dating our friend that I was going to find him and string him up by his toes...
when I was in the hospital for dx a nurse came in all cheery and said "You can do anything even with diabetes... except fly a commercial plane and serve in the army." I looked at her deadpan and said "You just crushed my dreams." (she didn't) I think she almost cried!
When they were teaching my parents how to use the glucagon (As I just watched sort of creeped out) my dad was playing with the one they had shown them (it didn't have a needle) and he pretended to stab my mom in the leg. He scared her so bad she was across the room in like a second and wouldn't come back for a minute!
My friends find test strips (used) at their house and save them for weeks so they can give them back when I come over again.
A little boy I babysat saw my pump and asked what it was... I told him it was a battery pack and that I was really a robot... he believed me!
I finally got sick of people asking me if I could eat stuff and just said "nope" and kept on eating, the poor girl thought I was going to die! (but hey, she also thought that diabetes was a problem with your heart....)
ANd the best one ever....
I was at church, and a big joke with my friends is that people ask if I can eat things 'in my condition' like I'm pregnant or something... so one time a man I barley know came into the church kitchen and was like ' young lady I don't think that's on your diet!' and my friend stood up and yelled 'THE BABY IS FINE OKAY?' we nearly died and he hasn't spoken to me since!
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